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the five point star (☆) is an extremely important symbol 2 me. it represents and shares the name of a celestial body that is impossibly large and incomprehensibly beautiful and extremely powerful. something that powers our very existence, we rely on it without even thinking about it. the symbol is shorthand 4 something so indescribable and ethereal that its almost funny how simple the symbol is. five lines 2 portray something that we could never ever see the totality of, something that would burn u into Nothing if u got 2 close. something so distant from us on earth that it would take millions of lifetimes 2 reach. the five point star is 2 my Body as the real celestial star is 2 my "Soul" or whatever u call it. my physical existence is a symbol 4 everything that i actually am. my Five Point Star existence is the only way one can go about understanding me, as 2 engage w the totality of Me is an impossible task that one could never do from a human perspective (the only one we have). 2 get 2 know me is to get closer 2 the celestial body, 2 gain a new perspective of the gargantuan ball of energy that is Me, but u will never see it all 4 urself. even I will never really see all of Me 4 what i am, bc i am also limited by my Own Five Point Corporeal Symbolic Existence. basically, i am Just A Vessel. 4 exactly what is the question i am trying 2 answer. so far, i have found that this Shell is a vessel 4 so many different yet interconnected ppl. ones that cant interact, and can only know each other in one direction, and can only help each other thru the other. that "can" is doing a lot of heavy lifting, as i have never felt like a consistent 'person' over time. my identity completely changes and everything about me divorces itself from the past versions of me. i plaster myself with that symbol ☆, as a declaration that This is not all i am. i cut it into and write it on my skin, draw it on everything i can, i will one day have it tattooed on me a thousand times. it declares that the ways that we interact with the world r Not Sufficient enough 2 capture Me, that my skin, my hair, my eyes, my arms, my hands, my legs, my height, my voice, my language and dialect, my personality, all of "me", is not really all of Me. it is merely a Translation Of The Soul "within" me. 2 be me, and as i hypothesize, 2 be a person in general, is 2 translate the trueness of ones existence into language that will never ever ever in a million billion years mean enough 2 really represent Ones Self. the five point star means accepting that 2 live is 2 only exist through a limited vessel that would kill u 2 break out of. it means that in spite of the limitation, i will continue 2 exist, and continue 2 channel My Self the best i possibly can. Transitioning/Transforming was my biggest expression of this, it was defying what i was told was """supposed 2 be""" in the name of who i Truly Knew Myself 2 Be. it was 2 bring the celestial star just a little bit closer 2 the world, it was 2 burn away the ones that got 2 close and comfortable w the Five Pointed Facade that i had created out of fear. it was 2 brand myself with that meaning 4ever, PERMANENTLY. something that i know so many ppl r scared of. i could empathize with their cowardice about Changing Forever, an Unavoidable Feature Of Life, but only when they don't use it 2 fearmonger about my transformation into something closer to Me. the symbol is a way to tell myself and others that i will never let the fears of other be Projected upon me, despite the impossibility of truly existing as Me. it means that IDGAF.